stardustsniffer
~We promised to never make promises, but my forevers and his nevers makes liars of us both~
Hurry up and wait...
There’s nothing worse than waiting.
Waiting for change, waiting for the inevitable, waiting for love. Waiting for anything really. Anticipation is anti-elation. All it does is cause this nervous feeling in your stomach, a flutter in your brain…all because you don’t know what is next, what is going to happen, how it’s going to end. The funny part is life would be considerably boring without waiting. Waiting for your first house, waiting for your baby to be born, waiting to fall in love. Waiting, waiting, waiting….the double edged sword we all tend to slice ourselves on; becoming masochistic fools as we curse the very thing that gives our lives the excitement we need to want to wake up in the morning. At least, that’s how it is for most people.
I myself hate waiting.
But that could be because I wait for the wrong things. Waiting for it to be over, waiting for the worse to happen, waiting to be proven right. I’ve never been a patient girl. When I know something is going to happen, I want it to happen right away. Not when it feels like it. Not when the damn time is right. I hate sitting around and hoping and praying and wishing and fretting…for what? What purpose do these things have? I don’t feel any better from it. It doesn’t change the outcome. What I knew would happen always ends up happening. What I didn’t want to happen always ends up happening. It doesn’t matter what I want. What I know always wins. Even when I’m in denial.
I am writing this as I am sitting here waiting for it to be time to go home. I am waiting to find out if I’m going to get moved to another department. I am waiting for the crimson wave to end. I am waiting to be noticed. I am waiting for the right time. I am waiting to be loved.
I am waiting to stop waiting.
Haven’t I said something like this before?
I guess I’m still waiting for my world to change.
Waiting for change, waiting for the inevitable, waiting for love. Waiting for anything really. Anticipation is anti-elation. All it does is cause this nervous feeling in your stomach, a flutter in your brain…all because you don’t know what is next, what is going to happen, how it’s going to end. The funny part is life would be considerably boring without waiting. Waiting for your first house, waiting for your baby to be born, waiting to fall in love. Waiting, waiting, waiting….the double edged sword we all tend to slice ourselves on; becoming masochistic fools as we curse the very thing that gives our lives the excitement we need to want to wake up in the morning. At least, that’s how it is for most people.
I myself hate waiting.
But that could be because I wait for the wrong things. Waiting for it to be over, waiting for the worse to happen, waiting to be proven right. I’ve never been a patient girl. When I know something is going to happen, I want it to happen right away. Not when it feels like it. Not when the damn time is right. I hate sitting around and hoping and praying and wishing and fretting…for what? What purpose do these things have? I don’t feel any better from it. It doesn’t change the outcome. What I knew would happen always ends up happening. What I didn’t want to happen always ends up happening. It doesn’t matter what I want. What I know always wins. Even when I’m in denial.
I am writing this as I am sitting here waiting for it to be time to go home. I am waiting to find out if I’m going to get moved to another department. I am waiting for the crimson wave to end. I am waiting to be noticed. I am waiting for the right time. I am waiting to be loved.
I am waiting to stop waiting.
Haven’t I said something like this before?
I guess I’m still waiting for my world to change.
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